Sunday, December 25, 2005

Okay fine. i didnt fulfil my promise and update my blog as stated in the previous entry. but here i am! at 3.17am, typing this entry. It's christmas day! so MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!

Especially to my dearest band clique - AGA, my junior band clique - ATP & friends, MJCSB on the whole, my 04S203 civics group mates whom i've not really met since A levels ended, my PAE 04S204 mates, my cchsmband pals huifen, junwei, kailing, lianwei, quanming, xiufeng, lookit; my loyal supporter all thru from sec 1 to now - Leo; my favourite 4DL classmates like huijun, and my bestest pal - tiffany.

Well it's been a pretty (un?)eventful christmas eve night with a group of them. Wonderful though, spending this night with kinlok, tszyan, fabian+sarah(yap), xuanwei, donovan, zhengyi and zhenghong wandering along orchard road and getting all pissed off by pple who enjoy playing with foam sprays. desperate for snow i assume, or maybe some of them just need skin whiteners(haha!). Countdown wasnt really countdown cos we didnt really get to count. There was a sudden huge roar from the crowd outside wheelock, and YAY it's Christmas Day! Yeah that's it.

I feel utterly overdressed. (RANDOM)

All in all, it was fun. I mean, anything beats staying on at my mum's friend's place singing songs of praise, dancing, and mingling around with the adults that i've never seen before, describing the jc system and how i got through my 12 years of education, OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

MJCSB gave me life in these 2 years. I'm really going to miss everyone so much when next year starts. As fabian puts it, the real test of friendships comes after graduation, where pple don't have the luxury of seeing each other everyday. How true, judging from experience. I never wanna see all these fostered friendships get left behind into history when life goes on for all of us. Never wanna lose it all once again...

Merry christmas again, people. Till again! (pictures next time, hopefully)

Thought of the day: I don't know how much I mean to you, and you and you and you... I feel like my existence never really made a difference at all, much as i wanted it to. It's painful to see everyone sharing something common only to them, but not to you. I don't know how much i must do, and i don't know where it lies. I don't know if hugs and kisses and wishes were ever meant from the bottom of hearts, I don't know if we were as close as i thought, and i don't know if you and you and you and you will miss me when i'm gone. I don't know if i've been of help with anything, I don't know if I were nice enough, I don't know if i've been a good friend and soulmate and everything, and i don't know if i've made an impact in your lives. Everything just means too much to me, and i don't know how to describe it to you and you and you and you....