Saturday, November 26, 2005

Hey, it's all over!

Yeah.

You free?

Yeah.

1)
Hmmm you said something about going out?

Yeah. Sure.

Hey! aren't we supposed to go out today? Why're u still not out?

Sorry. I don't think i'm coming already. Yeah.

2)
Hey! you free to chat?

Haha... yah. But i'm watching tv.

Life is boring right.

Yah. Haha, okay i wanna go watch tv now. Cya!

3)
Hey wanna go out?

Eh? We're all going out tomorrow. Didn't they tell you?

Err no...

Oh okay. we're going to watch a movie. i think they forgot to tell you. Haha!


Well things do happen. Life just doesnt turn out the way you want it to, even after exams. Things change at an alarming rate.

It's kind of disheartening, to see the world getting increasingly interconnected, except you. Everyone has everyone else. And all you're left with is yourself, yourself and yourself. Again, you don't mean anything to anyone. You're just a last resort, something to use and look up when all others are gone.

What's the point? Of thinking about what you'll want to do for everyone, how much you appreciate people in your life, how nice you should be to them... How many people actually appreciates you?

I'm upset. disappointed. that some people, some friends can turn SO extremely practical. Time and again i say i won't let it happen again, i'll turn hard. but it never works. It makes me think about the value of my existence.

Forgotten. the condition of being treated with thoughtless inattention; neglected.

Look me up only when you need something from me? Talk to me only when you need me?

A precious diamond when needed, a speck of dust or a dirty old rag when not needed anymore.

Sigh. What's there to look forward to?