Saturday, November 26, 2005
Hey, it's all over!Yeah.
You free?
Yeah.
1)
Hmmm you said something about going out?
Yeah. Sure.
Hey! aren't we supposed to go out today? Why're u still not out?
Sorry. I don't think i'm coming already. Yeah.
2)
Hey! you free to chat?
Haha... yah. But i'm watching tv.
Life is boring right.
Yah. Haha, okay i wanna go watch tv now. Cya!
3)
Hey wanna go out?
Eh? We're all going out tomorrow. Didn't they tell you?
Err no...
Oh okay. we're going to watch a movie. i think they forgot to tell you. Haha!
Well things do happen. Life just doesnt turn out the way you want it to, even after exams. Things change at an alarming rate.
It's kind of disheartening, to see the world getting increasingly interconnected, except you. Everyone has everyone else. And all you're left with is yourself, yourself and yourself. Again, you don't mean anything to anyone. You're just a last resort, something to use and look up when all others are gone.
What's the point? Of thinking about what you'll want to do for everyone, how much you appreciate people in your life, how nice you should be to them... How many people actually appreciates you?
I'm upset. disappointed. that some people, some friends can turn SO extremely practical. Time and again i say i won't let it happen again, i'll turn hard. but it never works. It makes me think about the value of my existence.
Forgotten. the condition of being treated with thoughtless inattention; neglected.
Look me up only when you need something from me? Talk to me only when you need me?
A precious diamond when needed, a speck of dust or a dirty old rag when not needed anymore.
Sigh. What's there to look forward to?
Friday, November 25, 2005
Actually, ending A levels aint that big a thing after all. Ending A levels late really sucks. It kinda makes me feel detached from the world. Everyone else is probably SICK and TIRED of ENJOYING, when i just got freed and WANT to START enjoying.Sigh. It's kinda difficult to get people out now, i guess. The rest of the world is already occupied with everything else. No one is contactable, and i remain ignorant of what's happening outside my house. How sad...
There used to be so much i'm looking forward to, but nothing materialises.
And as always, once again, I'm forgotten.
Why does it always have to happen?
Thursday, November 24, 2005
And... hello to the world! People it's the TWENTY FOURTH OF NOVEMBER ! It's the END of my 2 year A level course. Shall post up a couple of issues for this entry.1) A Levels. I have absolutely no idea as to whether i screwed my papers up. But i swear i saw the papers gloating when the Chief Preceding Examiner announced the commencement of each paper. So, i can officially erase theory of binomial distribution and related things off my memory now. Maybe i'll retain the structure of the breast and roles of hormones during pregnancy. Hmmm, I'd love to keep the Liquidity Preference Theory too, and erase the Poisson Distribution and related chapters. I'm of course at the liberty to do all these, provided i don't repeat the A levels. *touch wood*
2) Maha Bodhi School Concert Band 10th Anniversary. On the 11th of November, i went back to MBS and played for the launch of our 10th Anniversary recording - Odyssey! It was marvellous. The juniors were SOOOOOO cute. Ah anyway, the point is that ODYSSEY rocks. A compilation of 13 songs, of which 10 were played by the alumni band, and 3 were by the junior band. Here's a little extract(a little editted) from Camilia's blog.
How true! I vividly remember how we first went back to that AV Theatrette of MBS for the very first alumni band briefing on this project, some 1 year ago. and the once a month practices, all for the sake of this recording. So support us guys! purchase ODYSSEY @ $20 each for fund raising to let the kids go overseas. Let me know if u wanna listen to a track or two. It's definitely impressive, for a (the best)primary school band and her alumni.
The launch was a pretty emotional one i guess, though there werent much tears and all. I'm so going to miss playing in a band with these band mates who were with me thru from primary 3 to primary 6. And the REALLY REALLY cute juniors. im really turning paedophilic. And my conductor Mr Quek Boon Hui, and the pregnant Ms Angeline Wee (aka Mrs Leonard Tan), and the whole group of my primary school teachers. Memories...
3)Prom Night @ Fullerton - Abrace La Noche. I'm still thinking of what to wear, and what to do to my hair so that i don't look like an over filled chinese dumpling. I need to lose some weight seriously. But i don't mind. because the next big thing is about wasting as much time as i have currently. Oh well. i'll see to it ASAP. (as always)
4)Driving! Basic Theory Test. The first thing i got to today after my biology paper 1, was the registration for my Basic Driving Theory Test. nothing great, thought i'd just put it up here to increase the length of this list. I hope i'll pass. the theory book looks boring.
5)Relief Teaching. I registered with MOE as a relief teacher, and was given provisional approval already. So SCHOOLS! You can employ me during this period of time as a relief teacher already! I do hope i can get back to CCHS(M) and teach. Maybe i'll go back and check out some teaching vacancies.
6)MJCSB and Noah's Ark. Yes! and the greatest of all, is of course the post-prom Genting Trip together with MJCSB for the competition. I can't wait to get together with AGA and friends as well as ATP and friends, as well as bitch with Ms Sia again! Life rocks when there's just band and band and free time. So for now, 1.5 weeks to the competition, i'll be trying very hard to get my embrochure back, and practising Noah's Ark. So, all the best to MJCSB and Noah's Ark!
So, that's for now. i guess i'll blog more tomorrow or something. i need to SLEEP!