Friday, February 18, 2005

okay! here i am again after 1 month of absense from blogspot. decided to update if not it'll be unfair to say no one reads my blog cos for a start i din even update it. haha. anyway, a big thanks to everyone who had dropped by to tag on my board. tiffany, jiayan, clara jiez, wendy meiz, wee kiat, jocelyn and everyone else. haha im okay already i guess. it was just that night when my inferiority complex problem aggravated. yeah...

had kind of a good talk with someone i dun usually talk to a coupla days ago. and we talked about things that people dun usually open up to others like how you really feel about a certain matter, about yourself, about things that you do, about everyday life, about how confident you are. i realised that it's actually a very satisfying, relieving to find someone who are on a common train of thought and view on these things that are embedded considerably deeply somewhere in you. it's like you can just open up and talk to him about everything you've kept for so long. somehow i also realised that sometimes your closest friend, or an equivalent you deem as a close friend, might not be the person you can relate everything to. there'll be certain things he cannot understand because he doesn't go thru that similar process... oh well. sigh.

just came back from opening ceremony rehearsal! the MJC-standard-pathetic-primary school-like HALL is finally air conditioned. the college's gearing up for the coming opening ceremony and yup of course the band is involved, considering it to be one of the niche CCAs. and of course, our focus on SYF training is diverted, and we lose concentration and we cant focus well. not like i care about opening ceremony yah. SYF's definitely more important and quantitative in terms of the earning reputation for the college. kinda worried. after today, it's 74 days exactly if we exclude the day of the competition itself. minus the approximate 4 practices, 14 days we'll miss due to block test we're only left with about 50 odd to 60 days before SYF. a short 2 months. to achieve a Gold medal, we need to fulfil about 16 criteria and do well for every single one. sigh. how exactly? it's the greatest want ever since i came to MJ. before the A levels, and SYF Gold is my greatest goal.

I'm glad i have a very good percussion section leader who's leading the section on gym workouts every week to strengthen their left hands to prevent uneven strokes.

college life sux i guess. gotta put on a sickening facade everyday.

peace out~